My whole heart,

 Hi i've moved to www.droguedemot.blogspot.com LOL just kinda sick of livejournal, might come back here on day! 

People change all the time, people come and go all the time, people make mistakes all the time, but do people really change? or do they just become who they really are? do people leave, so better people can come in to your life? and do people really learn from their mistakes? or do they just repeat them? Humans are so complex sometimes. How is it possible, for one to backstab his or her friend? is it jealousy? and if you really don't like that person, why bother acting like you do? And how is it possible, for everyone that goes into a relationship, and a week later, they're throwing around "i love you"s like the word doesn't mean anything? I've seen and know people that get into a relationship and they act like they are so in love, but in fact, two months later(or less), its over. Why do some people see the need to tell their boyfriend or girlfriend that they love them when it may not even be true? Everytime i see "lians" and "bengs" together, or "minahs" and "mutts" together, i always wonder if they actually love each other. Since many of them switch partners weekly. And is it possible for one to truly love two/three people? Cause i believe, once you really actually love someone, you always will.

ever woke up from one of a dream and just remain in bed for a longer time than usual just thinking about that dream? for me, i always dream of my teeth falling out. its actually makes me really paranoid when i wake up. i remember telling someone about it and she told me it meant i was going to lose someone close to me. but i googled it, and it actually means..

( teeth )
it does kind of make sense tho, i looked at alot of other dreams like flying dreams or falling dreams. i even searched up dejavu's but it was too complicated for me. i dont know, i just think its amazing how a dream can actually mirror what you're feeling inside. 

 




lol fai painted his room like this! 

my faggot <3

I have so many things to do, i absolutely hate the fact that i am a 'last minute type' of person. I made a to-do list a month back, till now nothing has been checked :/ Chinese new year is coming, gah i dont know why but i never really enjoyed chinese new year. I hate making conversations with relatives i dont know and hardly see. Its just so awkward..but i guess its kinda good cos my older brother actually shows up for the dinners. I have church tomorrow and im still up...while b is fast asleep. He always sleeps before me..well everyone always sleeps before me..and wakes up before me hahaha. Im going to watch some telly with ryan now. 

 

LOL YUP I CHOPPED IT OFF. Kinda regret alil tho!! this will be my last time i ever do something w/o thinking twice about my hair >:(
Watching the grammys now, how come taylor swift won ladygaga for best album? i dont get it. Dayuuuum i cant wait to shop! Short post for now, happy monday folks! 

i miss my bangs...hahaha 

i wish i was  young again. everything really seemed much more magical and innocent. lol ya im only fifteen but i would killllll to be 5 again. i want disney land to be real and unreal at the same time. i want to believe people when they make promises, because the older we get the more broken promises there are and slowly we just stop trusting, or believing. the only thing that can make me feel like a kid again is when i watch my disney movies, like peter pan or little mermaid. i remember my counsin who was four at that time and me six, we would run around the house pretending we were mermaids. yeah no water at all. the older people grow, they lose their imagination. everything is so realistic and well, not as fun haha. i want to be forever young.